Oh. Hi.
So…. Yea. What happened? This is out of character for me. What happened?
I really do not know. I asked to narrate this round because I wanted to narrate. My story, as you saw, was something I was excited about. I was excited to have a chance to narrate Mafia, excited about my story, excited about the events to come! I was looking forward to the debates and twists and fun we were going to have this week! I posted the backstory and alerted all the players to their roles, then waited for the Mafia to respond. I began working further on my story and was excited about it.
So… what happened?
I really do not know. Suddenly, like an unexpected setback in a project, I… dropped. I suddenly wanted to do nothing, interact with anyone, write, or code. All week I have felt… not down, depressed, sad, just… meh, drained. I began intentionally neglecting all online activities and not wanting to interact with anyone. I stopped posting, getting on chat, anything. And I am not sure why. I instead started binge watching cartoons all day, and I never binge watch (I do not care to do it and I never have time to do it anyway). I cannot describe how I have felt, nor can I explain why. I have never felt this way before. I tried to get out of this… weirdness by trying to code, write, Tweet, and say a few things to a few people, but I have been unable to break it.
As I said, I cannot explain the trigger. Tomorrow (Monday) I begin my summer activities, during which I will be super busy and not do much else until July, and naturally (probably like everyone else) I am nervous, but that usually only starts the day before and ends soon after whatever is happening starts. For me to start feeling… however I have felt because of something I want to do and know will be fun and have a good time doing an entire week before it starts... I… do not know.
All that said, I am deeply sorry for what I have done (or rather, not done) here. Do you think I wanted my week to go this way? Uh, no. Not in a million years. I wanted this to go well. My excitement fueled me. Then suddenly, poof, it all went away. I should have said something sooner. I should have not kept everyone waiting. I should have already written this post and passed the baton to someone else. Those who know me well know that I do what I say. Sure, I forget things and not do something because of whatever, but I am not a super hero, I am only human. The deal is I make it a rule to always honor my word. If I said something, I hold myself to it, and if I do not, I want the other party (parties) to hold me to it. I am a young man of integrity, honesty, upright, fair, trustworthy and honest, doing what people ask and constantly working to better others and make others look good. Yet I have intentionally failed to do what I said, and I am (metaphorically speaking) kicking myself for failing my own, personal standards.
I am working to get this game started... somehow. Someone else may take over, but if not... do as Ben says and celebrate (as well as what aiden says and vote off the last person to post).
I am sorry. I apologize. I did not want to… I…