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This has come as a bit of a surprise to me. I don't see you as "Mael: The Anime Hater or just Mael: The Unproductive Arsehole", to me you're another completely valid member of the RRU community. I don't believe that you don't fit in to RRU. You certainly don't need to have experience with Rock Raiders to "fit in" here, as we have equally popular modding research into other games going on. Even then, there is no prerequisite for you to be involved in classic games in any way to have a "right" to be here - the simple fact that you're here proves that you have something in common with some other member here, and that's all that is needed to form a community. Furthermore, don't waste your time comparing yourself to others. You are who you are, do not try and emulate or strive to become some other person. We already have that person in the world and don't need two of them. So what if people laugh more as a result of other people's jokes? That doesn't mean they value you any less. Don't judge yourself on the success of another person or you will never feel like you've achieved anything in life. One very useful thing I've learned is that there will always be someone better than you. Always. And that should not make you feel disheartened, rather feel encouraged to simply be the best you can be, that's all you can give and that's all the world asks for. I understand that you want to improve your "immaturity", not that I particularly see it, and I can offer some excellent advice on that. You're on the Internet. You have the incredible luxury of being able to review every comment you ever make before you make it. Before you click that post button, have a read through and think "does this sound rude/immature/etc?" Would you be offended if someone said it to you? You can even try reading it in a sarcastic or rude tone and seeing if it still sounds relatively okay. Another great piece of advice I have learned is to not be disheartened when I make mistakes. If you do make a poor comment or behave in a bad way, don't beat yourself up about it. Obviously you need to embrace the fact that you did something wrong and should deal with it, but do not feel depressed or in any way hate yourself for it. That only makes things worse and will not help you move on. If you still feel that you need a break then please go ahead, and I hope it does you good.

I think it's great that you have realized that you have to change something in yourself, this is always the most important step in the process. While I can't say that I have always been supportive of you or your behaviour, I do think that you can redeem yourself if you take some time off and mature a bit. While RRU is extremely inclusive for all kinds of people, many here (myself included) struggle with coping with the immature ramblings of several members and normally just shrug it off and don't say anything about it, while at the same time those same members lose some respect of the offending poster. I hope that you can use your time off to improve as a poster and mature as a person, so that we can welcome you back to RRU with open arms. @Ben: The whole "look at me! I'm on the internet!" thing is a kids thing. Most people use the internet for entertainment (YouTube, for example), socializing (Facebook, Twitter, Forums, etc.) or information gathering (Wikipedia). Nobody should use the internet with the express purpose of getting noticed, because normally that kind of behaviour means that you have nothing to show or say, but still can't stop talking. You did do that a lot, and on occasion still do it. Then again, it might just be me that thinks this

it really is a shame to hear that your feeling depressed. To realize once's flaws after so long can be quite painful, yet it is such common of a thing to happen, especial considering your age. Despite what you might think (or thought), your still a child and you are going to make allot of mistakes, its natural since all children are introduced to a world they fully don't understand, and they learn through observation, experience and mistakes. However, now that you realize your flaws and mistakes, you are a better person than those who act immature and doesn't realize it, since you now know that some of your behavior is not acceptable, you will sooner or later change into a much more maturer person because of this realization. I think most of us (if not all of us) have gone through something similar to what your currently going through, when i was first introduced to the internet, i also went nutty and tried to make everybody laugh without realizing that i was in reality not amusing at all, but then i slowly realized the truth and i have grown more mature by the time. Don't be ashamed of your mistakes, it is natural for these things to happen, just take your time to reflect and learn what you can and you'll become a better person no doubt, you already took the 1st step, its all a matter of time. Hope to see you soon. P:S: I am really happy over the fact you consider me a friend, thank you In fact, thanks to anybody on this forum who considers me a friend, it really means allot to me.

To be honest, that's basically my RRU experience when I first joined, although I joined hoping to get noticed. I tried to be insane for laughs (or I didn't, I can't remember), I tried to start up discussion topics (which would end up with me arguing with every member's reply that, and actually did, prove my points wrong), I tried to work on projects (which I would forget about), I tried to get noticed (only to be ignored), and so on, and eventually got banned, moderated, and received warning points, all 8 are the scars from my past on RRU. And after that, I decided to wise up (I'm not saying you have to Mael, I'm just saying what worked with me), I did less projects (even though I'm struggling with one and about to struggle with another), made slightly more correct discussion points, recieved criticism and took it in while trying to not get frustrated, and finally realised the entire point of the Internet: most, if not everyone, wants to be noticed (feel free to say it's mostly kids) only to feel depressed when not noticed and then commit suicide (at least, that's what I think)... ...and I wasn't joking with that last part. So until you come back, I wish you the best while you refresh yourself. --Ben24x7--

Recognizing you need a break is good step, so is recognizing that you aren't that mature yet and don't worry, we'll all be here, waiting for you, a little older, a little wiser, but happy to see your return. I hope you have good break, and come back to RRU when you're ready to have some fun again.